I have three weeks left and I’m noticing I’m struggling with something weird — the paranoia that I’m talking about the program too damn much! Seriously, it feels like every other conversation I have revolves around P90X. At first I initiated them, but now people who know me just ask about it, presumably because they have an inkling what it’s about and plus they know it’s what my spare time revolves around. No mystery about what I do now; work out all the freakin’ time! It’s part and parcel of the program after all. And now I’m paranoid about whether people really care that much about it or they’re just being polite. However, so far four people have either started the program or are about to, and several more have expressed interest in jumping into the fray, so I’m assuming at least half the people I talk to are genuinely interested in it. If you’re not, sorry about blabbing about it. It will be over in three weeks. And then I’ll be reminiscing about it, which will be even worse.
For those people who are actually starting the program, it’s been nice to have some fresh meat to discuss this stuff with! At least I don’t have to wonder if you actually care about the program. We need to form a P90X brotherhood where we have a secret X shake of some sort. That wouldn’t be lame at all.
Also, I think there is a danger about becoming too self-obsessed when on a program like this as well. When I started the program, I was literally doing it just to give myself a great foundation for other activities. I really wasn’t even doing it for aesthetic reasons. Yet when you feel your body start to change and a lot of the “Softness” melts away, it’s hard not to get caught up in the glory of it all and dream of becoming the next Wolverine. But I have to check that tendency. I ain’t all that, I’m just getting stronger and laying a foundation to have my ass kicked in some other endeavor after this is over. And that’s what it’s all about!
I will be writing more about this topic hopefully soon; bedtime draws near and it’s hard to even find time to update the blog, but just know that it’s back to squashing the old ego, which is what always threatens to destroy progress, crush dreams, and swallow souls whole.
Tags: Pondering